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Being Ever So Brave


This month, a new aspect of my kink seems to be emerging. And very interesting it is (for me. It may not be very interesting for you, in which case I apologise unreservedly. My blog is awfully egocentric, I’m afraid). Now that I’ve started to write about it, I realise it’s not actually entirely new, it’s just that I’m concentrating on it more than normal, and all my fantasies are rather focused on it right now.

This month I am Being Brave.

It suddenly struck me that I do tend to behave in an utterly undignified way. Now, this is a great deal of fun, but I’ve started to feel very impressed with and envious of people who are a bit braver and more stoic than me (there are many of these people, alas). So lots of my fantasies involve being a highly trained military-something (hmm, haven’t really researched this very thoroughly yet) and being magically tough enough to cope with all sorts of cruelty. I want to try to psych out whoever’s punishing me by not responding; and while this is probably going to be impossible, it’s awfully satisfying and exciting to try.

So here is a picture of me being Ever So Brave, confronted by a wicked doctor who has locked me up in his asylum. He’s probably going to do terrible things to me, and of course I’m frightened, but I’m not going to tell him who I’m spying for (I want to be a spy as well as a military-something – sorry I forgot to mention that before) because I’m VERY tough.

Sadly, this week in my real life I have not been Ever So Brave. On Tuesday I had a super spanking shoot (with my friend P, who writes beautiful scripts) and I tried to be terribly self-possessed in our ‘arrested abroad after being framed for drug-smuggling’ storyline, but the false accusations made me cry (duh, not brave) and I don’t think I took the 62 cane strokes in a very highly-trained way, to be perfectly honest.

But it’s not about the winning, it’s about the taking part. OBviously. I shall keep trying. Who Dares Wins, and all that. Oh, I want to be Andy McNab….

Being Ever So Brave

Being Ever So Brave

This month, a new aspect of my kink seems to be emerging. And very interesting it is (for me. It may not be very interesting for you, in which case I apologise unreservedly. My blog is awfully egocentric, I’m afraid). Now that I’ve started to write about it, I realise it’s not actually entirely new, it’s just that I’m concentrating on it more than normal, and all my fantasies are rather focused on it right now.
This month I am Being Brave.
It suddenly struck me that I do tend to behave in an utterly undignified way. Now, this is a great deal of fun, but I’ve started to feel very impressed with and envious of people who are a bit braver and more stoic than me (there are many of these people, alas). So lots of my fantasies involve being a highly trained military-something (hmm, haven’t really researched this very thoroughly yet) and being magically tough enough to cope with all sorts of cruelty. I want to try to psych out whoever’s punishing me by not responding; and while this is probably going to be impossible, it’s awfully satisfying and exciting to try.
So here is a picture of me being Ever So Brave, confronted by a wicked doctor who has locked me up in his asylum. He’s probably going to do terrible things to me, and of course I’m frightened, but I’m not going to tell him who I’m spying for (I want to be a spy as well as a military-something – sorry I forgot to mention that before) because I’m VERY tough.
Sadly, this week in my real life I have not been Ever So Brave. On Tuesday I had a super spanking shoot (with my friend P, who writes beautiful scripts) and I tried to be terribly self-possessed in our ‘arrested abroad after being framed for drug-smuggling’ storyline, but the false accusations made me cry (duh, not brave) and I don’t think I took the 62 cane strokes in a very highly-trained way, to be perfectly honest.
But it’s not about the winning, it’s about the taking part. OBviously. I shall keep trying. Who Dares Wins, and all that. Oh, I want to be Andy McNab….

Lots of Beating

Amelia-Jane has been on a little sabbatical because no one has booked me for spanking work over the last few weeks. I’ve been frightfully busy with lots of other stuff. Here is a list (I love lists)

Interesting Stuff

Shooting for http://www.mightyaphrodite.co.uk/ who produce fabulous, tasteful nude pictures for ladies who’re looking for stylish erotic portraits for themselves or their partner. I was helping to shoot their new brochure and it was lovely fun. I do recommend them if you’re looking for nice pictures of yourself. They’ve spent years perfecting the art of using lighting to hide all the flaws and illuminating all the most beautiful bits of anyone’s body. And they’re photoshop magicians too.

Travelling round Ireland on my own, working with photographers as I went. One of them was my friend who runs http://www.simplytied.com/ This is always a great treat, I wore luxurious pantyhose and got tied up in very beautiful rope designs.

Working for http://www.restrainedelegance.com/ (which now has a beautiful new free tour) at a small castle in rural Wiltshire. We were planning to shoot video but we ended up too near a main road for sound to be any good so we did lots of pictures instead (which I’ll post next time I blog). If we’d done video, I expect there would have been plenty of spanking, but as it was I got tied up an AWFUL lot, but not spanked much…

Now that I’ve written my list of interesting things, I’ve rather lost the desire to write a list of boring things I’ve done. But self-discipline really must prevail. Here it is.

Huh, I just deleted it. It was too boring. Wheeee!

Now, perhaps you were thinking that because there haven’t been any spanking shoots that I might have been enjoying a little break. Well, I kind of was until today. The BDM, who’s been rather busy himself and therefore slightly less observant than normal suddenly became very strict this morning. I lost the car in the Sainsbury’s carpark and he (rather irrationally, I do feel) said that if I couldn’t locate it without help then I’d have to be punished when we got home. Well really. Obviously I couldn’t find it, because I’m far too important to notice silly little things like that. And his car is an extremly boring colour (unlike my car, who’s name is Precious Garland, and she never gets lost, oh no). So then HE found it, took me home and made very efficient use of a big leather strap and my bottom. I think it reminded him that unkindness is very fun, because now he’s said that unless I post on my blog, I’ll have to take 40 strokes (with the same strap) this evening.

Hmmmm. Well, I have posted. So maybe that’s ok. Except that I also did something else very, very wrong today, for which the normal punishment is bastinado. Ouch. So there is suddenly lots of beating in my life.

Hello everyone!

Ariel/Amelia

Spring Time!

Well, good lord. I’m back from a trip to Morocco, and, as always, am appalled at myself, and both flattered and rather amazed by the gracious people who post comments on my blog. Thank you! I’ve became phobic of visiting my own blog because it shames me so much, seeing the evidence of my own laziness, and the kind supportive comments everyone else seems to manage to find time to write.

I’ve also been reading a super book called Blood, Sweat and Tea by Tom Reynolds, a UK ambulance-driving-hero-man (oh, bloody hell, I suppose I should link to it and I seem to have broken the thing that does that) http://www.amazon.co.uk/Blood-Sweat-Tea-Adventures-Inner-city/dp/1905548230 Oh good heavens, it actually worked. It’s based on his blog (ha, shall link to it now!) http://randomreality.blogware.com/ and not only am I impressed by his lovely writing and kindness, but I’m shocked and amazed that he managed to write a blog that was LONG enough to turn into a book. This makes me EVEN MORE ASHAMED.

So I’m trying again. It’s springtime, I’ve been shooting with the BDM (Boyfriend/Dom/Master for those of you who are new to my blog, or just can’t face trawling back over past entries) outside, in the bluebells. In purple handcuffs. I have many things to say, having been absent for so long, but I’m trying to control myself, and organise my blog into shorter, more frequent posts. Like a proper blogger. In the meantime, I shall say that I very much liked being photographed in handcuffs that matched the surroundings. Thank you BDM.

And Leia Ann Woods http://leiasnewmusings.blogspot.com/ SPECIFICALLY told me that it’s ok to post one-sentence blog-posts. Like;-

‘Mmmm, red shoes.’ presumably. Which is the kind of thing she says. You may think this would be a bit unsatisfactory, but she assures me that it’s ok. Thank you Leia!

Vanilla Flavoured

Hello everyone (apologies as always for being so awful; but how nice to have comments from all the kind spanking models who are clearly a) more organised and b) more polite than me and comment like proper grownups on other peoples’ blogs. Thank you everyone for your comments – I think I’ll start writing posts that actually start answering peoples’ questions. Maybe one a week? ‘Blogging Wednesdays’ maybe 🙂
Anyway, it’s recently come to my attention that normal people sometimes read my blog. I had a normal(ish) shoot on Saturday, and at the end, the photographer said ‘Good luck with your orange walls!’ Hmm, I thought he was a scary psychic, but it turned out he’d just researched me rather thoroughly and FOUND my blog, even though he wasn’t shooting me as either Amelia or Ariel. Wow! After feeling a little bit exposed (and awfully impressed with him) I realised that actually there are a few people I know of who aren’t really into bondage or spanking, but who kindly visit my blog anyway. I do wonder if you think I’m mental, but it’s very nice to have you.
So, in honour of any vanilla readers, here are some vanilla facts about me 🙂
1) I don’t like ice cream, especially not vanilla.
2) Mmm, I REALLY like sword fighting. I used to do it, and loved it very much (mainly because it was a little bit like BDSM though – I always made sure I lost)
3) I trained in classical theatre, and used to tour the UK doing Shakespeare plays before I discovered modelling.
4) Oh good lord, I’m scared of spiders, being underwater, monsters hiding in cupboards and blood tests.
5) Urgh, I can’t bear to look at shellfish. Brrrrrrr!
6) Well, this is a bit boring. I’ll stop now.
Urgh, boring myself. I shall go back to discussing spanking and bondage. At the moment I’m thinking about spanking machines, ball gags and obedience training. Hooray!
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